i'm just lying to myself

i dont know why i have this feeling when i’m around you,
it’s prolly just the bacteria in the space between us,
but thats just lying to myself.
i know, its more than that.

Hai, i went to jump down a building already. No, i'm in no mood to share what's happening in my life. Yes, i'm blogging. Bearbearalla looks super cute and cheers me up whenever I look at her. :)

Yeah, today's maths paper 1. Breeze through it smoothly, there should be some careless mistakes here and there. But, not-so-quite-sure-that-i'll-get-correct mindset now. Anyws, it's over so, no use pondering about it.

Paper finished quite early, so spent time till 1pm at the library doing History. I managed to do 3 chapters so I'm going off to revise them again. Mr gan's paper is a not-so-going-be-hard-but-maybe-it-is. So yes, in other words, a slightly higher level than above average yet a slightly lower level than difficult.

yes, I'm off the computer. And please slap me if you see me online for over 1 hour. Thnks. :D
And, I haven't started on my science revision. I have to hit down to the library tomorrow after history and mug there. Pls hope I can complete on time :)

Maybe the decision that I made before was the wrong one. Or maybe I'm just being sensitive and thinking in my mind that you guys are my friends. And maybe in your mind I'm not such-a-close friend to you guys. yeah, maybe through those hints I think back. Yes, I can finally see it and understand.

i'm not included in your things, i'm fine with it. Just that, hide it from me. 'cause i don't want to get hurt, and deep down crying to myself in the corner. Life is life, it's full of maybes. I have to let it go, if not i'm the one that's feeling the pain. I'm letting go. I don't want to be heartbroken again, esp when it's the same people all over again.

I going to be strong though i'm weak inside. I will be strong.