Grandma

Long hiatus, and I'm back. I removed my blog link from all my social media platforms. I don't really want anyone to read this emo blog of mine.

I'm back just to let things off my chest.

I miss my grandma so so so much. I really wish that she'll be back. Although, I know, in reality it is not possible. I don't understand life, I don't understand why people have to go through death. I can't accept death. I can't accept losing my loved ones.

Mom told me to accept reality and move on. But each time I walk pass my grandma's room, I feel like crying.

Every time before and after school, I'll go to your room and talk to you. You'll smile. Each time when you don't want to eat dinner, I'll feed you. You'll eat and praise me. Each time you can't sleep cause you're in pain, I'd hold your hands and wait for you to fall asleep. When my day is bad, I'll share with you and you'll smile at me. Your smile can just make my day no matter what.

I know you accepted Christ, and you're in heaven. :') Amen for that.

Ahma, I know you're in a better place. I know that you're my guardian angel.
Let me dream of you soon, pls? X