Shocking news I received in the morning. Haven't decided whether I'm going for it or not, but my parents are asking me to go for it. But I got to decide myself. So, big dilemma!!! I'm just afraid of the worse and reoccurance.
For now, mutual trusting is decreasing. Doubting in definitely increasing. I'm sick of everything that's happening in my life. Sick of fake people. Sick of finding out who are fake. Sick of wondering whether they deserve my trust. Sick of doubting every single person right now. Sick of all the fucking sadness in my life. Is that really part of growing up? Can we all just skip this phrase? I distinctly remembered one sentence ytd "so, are we still friends anot?" fought back my tears and carried with life.
"we will all be friends." That's great. Sick of doing anything right now, cos whatever I'm doing, it all seems that I'm pushing away. Sick of all these nonsense. Not gonna find who is who, who's faking who, who's being bitches. Goodbye trust, hello doubts. I'm pretty sure I'm a new Sarah after tues alr, goodbye old fucking sarah.
Hopefully all will be smooooth till I graduate out.
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