July; friends?

Decided to start of the month with smth I've experienced in June. Tough month, but hey, I survived it :)

Recently, my mom had this "friends" talk with me cos she's damn scared I'll lose my focus and start playing hard again. No worries mom :) I've a great friend right beside me now, and watching wtv i'm typing. And this friend of mine, is my best friend <3 Love him alot.

PS/ In life, you've more than one bestfriend. You'll just hv to search for them!

He's the only guy that would pick up my phone calls late at night and assuring me every now and then that he won't leave. He won't get irritated whenever I repeat things 92736423645 times all over again and he'll cheer me up no matter what. And even though, I get really very irritable, he will not leave and always there cheering me up. Good start for July!!!! :)

Back to the topic: friends?

There's a super thin line between best friends and close friends.

Close friends are ppl having close relations. They know each other inside out, hobbies, likes, dislikes and maybe even, secrets. And once they're drifted, they will never go back the same like before. Close friends hang out (maybe) all the time, but they won't have the same comfort as best friends. Close friends can't open everything out. And that's what happened to me. I mean, I do feel sad that things fall this way, but after all, there're those memories that keep me smiling on. At least, these are the friends that will NEVER EVER become strangers no matter what.

Best friends? They're the same kind of ppl having close relations. Same as close friends. Even drifted for a long time, best friends will still have the same amt. of fun and laughing tgt. Especially, when both are quiet and silence between them, both will still be comfortable.

These are called best friends when silence is shared and no awkwardness felt at all.

But sadly, (at least to me) nothing should be shared with anyone. Because no matter what, it'll get let out one day. It's just a matter of time. I've to say that I've close friends and best friends beside me, but I can't trust. Trust hit me so badly. I tried to trust zw with my stuffs, but I'll always have second thoughts and the pain will remind me back once again, to never trust.

Anybody wanna help? :(

Till then, xx