hello beautiful. my life is so fk up recently. my life is like labelled FML. I'm sooo bloody sad and fk up now ): why uh. sec 3 and I'm losing interest in studies alrdy. fking afraid getting retain and stuff. obviously, I can see teachers giving up on me alrdy. yaa k, I'm not fitted in e2. all smart ppl and I'm like lagging behind. &teachers doesn't undrstand me at all.
stayed back for geog lsp today, spoke to mrs haridass for detention. then, she started talking about my midyear results and attitude in studies. first time, I swear, I ever let out everything to a teacher. broke down through it, but felt better after that. fuckyeahawesome feeling! :)
she's helping me talk to mschua too, how happy can I get. :) yeah, just hope the interest can come back to me once more, can pass this year and next's. and not retain. thanks mrs haridass.
okay, love is taking place in my life now. somehow I get jealous of couples &i don't want heartbroking to happen on me. but there's no fairytale love. ): that's so sad especially we're in this 21st century. ): (pls zw, long time forget marcus ok!)
don't feel like seeing his face in school at all. but manners apply ): you smile, I smile. marienne chew, I know you're reading this, I swear he's a bloody jerk ok. can't I deserve a better person why this type. I told you he got a girlf now right, wlao, then what's with the past few days. tmd been used like to the max can. USED. fear no bastard trust no love.
honestly, when will I be able to trust love again right after a painful experience especially you're the first. I say to myself I will, but when. just afraid..
nights, xx
PS: blogging with phone easy! :)
to you, my friend:
shouldn't you understand how I feel. why keep on doing the same
thing. no longer want to try on further, perhaps all outcomes are the same. know my hate know my loves, but deep in you know me well enough no?
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