i no longer hope for a forever

I never agree crying means you're weak. I never ever agreed to that sentence, while most of my friends tell me so. I cry, does it even mean i'm weak. Bloodyhell, can't people cry, it's emotion zzz. humans are just weird weird weird, like me. Esp mood swings.

My main problem: relationships in life.

There never acheive something till the top and the end. It either ends abrutly or just leave lying there without completing. I have friends, true friends that really stand by me when i really need that depsite they being irritating lame noob childish stupid and etc. they're still loved.

but fact is that, friends should understand the friends well what. I mean, come on, can't somebody see whether you're being pissed off or something. it's emotion dear, it's obvious, lying on my face. (not directed to anyone, just in general now) Ok, honestly i hate being teased or laughed at. There's a limit in things, and my limit of being teaser isn't high at all.

Being teased repeatly is fking stupid ok. I don't like it, i really hate it so just leave me alone. I can choose to standup and shout right into people's face for teasing me and making me fking pissed off. But yet, i chose the silent approach, the hide-your-emotions-into-your-body approach. What to say? that's sarahtwq lo.

I cry to myself very often if no one's there at the right moment. Why? My family members aren't there at all. My mother would always not listen at all. My sister, busy with her wedding. My dad, awesome yet blur. zzz What to do leh. Talk to myself and just cry.

Get the fact right dearz: Crying means you treasure the relationship and would not want it to slip past.

School > Home > j8 > home > potong pasir > home.

bbq at keith house. epic fail hahah, nobody ate at all, including me. busy preparing the fking fire which don't know why it just can't start up. fking hungry now ok. I shall go eat another noodle, walao, fatty bon bon already la. ):

Oh wait! i have swimming tomorrow morning! & movie in the afternoon. Gah. need to meet babes for kiteflying tomorrow also. in the evening somemore. joannnn, wo bu yao qu leh.

nights! x
& i believe i'm a strong girl. :)