that feeling i'm feeling now, that's making me feel very weird,

You’re special, at least to me. Sometimes I really feel like slapping almost everybody with their insensitivity (bet almost everyone is ok, don't say you're not. sometimes you guys can be the sweetests bitches and fuckers around, but sometimes like now getting sooooo annoying and irritating! omgbbqwtf.).

i'm jealous envious call it whatever, i'm jealous envious nao. gah. i'm being sucha bitchy person nao. Idk what to say, i feel like a badbadbad friend. :/ Gah. there's two sides what i'm experiencing. One side, they're talking about their love and their love life. While, the other side, joan experienced breakup and others missing the bf/gf. Gah, minglong is fucking telling me that i was the cause of the breakup. -.- fuckyourealbadly. Gahgah, i feel so zzz. honestly can't stand much what ppl are asking me what to do about my crush/gf/bf. Geez, fyi did you guys know I lost my bf, i'm single, my r/s been broken up, and i haven't gotten over it yet. Honestly manz, this feeling aint good. idk, sometimes i'm just thinking that you guys actually knows about it but just trying to make me feel bad. -/-

Guess i'm not heading to Club Se7en already, don't wanna bump into them anymore. I really wanna a reset button nao. Buy for me please? gahgah. ok my bucket list is gonna be filled soon, and best yet, i want something that can make me forget about you ok.

“I’m not looking to fall in love. I’m not even necessarily looking for a
boyfriend right now. I mean if it rly happens, then good for me/us/whatever. All
I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around
with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can
easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy
I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who’s not
perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?”
-closetcrumples

I kinda do miss the 17days tgt, which was barely 1month, zaijian 21st!
I need to stop being so observant abt certain things. Sometimes, closing one eye = not seeing so many things = not thinking so much = happier person. ignorance is bliss.

PS: whatever i wrote is not indirectly saying you ppl, but i have no other ways but to let it out.