The Second Chance

I jumped from lj back here, continue on.

2010, been not an easy route so far. Tears weren't alot during the beginning of the year. I became stronger after all these i guess. I never given up on life still, considered strong still ya. :)

I foresee it's gonna be quite long, so ya i'll cut it short. This is like a confession post, I just need to face it up.

Jan- beginning of the new year, new resolution made. (I've changed since 2007-2009) i made dedications, and didn't want to be drifted from my friends. But somehow, our bonds grew stronger, and the stronger it grew, i'm just afraid it will get broken because diff class, lesser time tgt.
- I changed towards my friends perpective, I became more self-centered i guess, I didn't want to share any of my friends, just afraid they will really be gone. ): I'm sucha loser.
- My council attitude changed from bad to worse. I didn't respect much to the council and the exco themselves, like how I did in sec2. Prolly this was why I had to be out of council. I was the cause of being out of council. yet I had to make myself feel better by pushing blames to the exco and Mr Lee. I feel damn bad now, and i apologised for all i've done.
- I found that my church friends stood by me despite their constant joking, irritating and teasing me always. I thanks God for that, I understood the meaning of true friends. :')
- I hang out with sg river ppl and met Joan, awesome girlf. :)
- I began to slack in ballet, I don't stretch and don't bother to do any exercises given. I wasted time, money and my teacher's effort and expectation of me. ):
- I got a sweet boyf. we broke up because we didn't match. I guess that main reason was I was being sucha bitch in the whole r/s. I caused the whole thing to break.
- Jiaokai's bday, happy moment in Jan that I can remember only. :)
- Didn't get into exco, I cried mental breakdown, cried for total 1 week, till everything was settled. Friends stood by me, i feel so bad right now, because I jsut wouldn't share anything at all.
- I cut my hair with joanne and claire. I didn't like the hairstyle. ):
- I became closer to meichen and kaixin, after cutting our hair tgt and shopping tgt! :)

Feb- I learnt how to gossiped/bitched with my friends about our friend tgt, despite that she was quite close to us, but her attitude pisses us off easily):
- I learnt to be indepedant and started going shopping by myself. :)
- I helped joan to forget about him, and we grew closer still. :)
- I met a new friend, donaldduck. Awesome, laughters were all around through the whole chitchats and texting over the phone. 1000++ texts, i swear. We drifted, i guess. I caused it too, i guessed.
- yamiyogurt became part of my life and I needed treats of yamiyogurt to strive for better results. I became thickskinned and kept asking for treats from food to arcade to movies to shopping.
- i failed my first ever paper in Maths of 5/40, I didn't study as hard as I did in sec 1. I played harder than studying. I slacked my bro's friends and learnt stuff that were bad. ):
- I openly talked about my close friends, with vulgarities.
- I fell in love with justinbieber on 22nd feb @ 7:47pm. i became obsessessed with him. I spent time listening to his music than studying):
- Seniors said I don't ave commitment in guides. I guessed my leadership roles are gonna be gone to those with much more commitment with me. I showed attitude to mdm, seniors and didn't participate in the nccgg camp'10. Prolly that's why they said I didn't have commitment, but I showed. Just that, they didn't see. ): Indirectly it's my fault for them losing trust and commitment in me. ):
- 21stfeb, I became serious in a r/s.

March- I'm out of council alr.
- Our sport'sday sakae date annually event. @bishan's sakae sushi. I learnt to change under the tables.
- Ovenight, I became a vulgar person. 20fucks just to scold 1 person. bad to worse ): fml.
- Mr ngtc left us, a guy that i'll remember in my life. Gave me enlightment in maths :)
- R/s ended on 17thmarch. Main reason now: 3ppl. ): Last long both of you.
- Extended my hair, overnight i became quite a bitchy person. ):
-closer to xiaowen, qianwen & debbiechua.
- nccgg campfire. fun 2themax, you spoilt it. ): BUFF GUYS. (:

I don't wanna write on alr. Wanna go study now. Can I have a second chance now? Will it be given to me? ):

byesxzs.