I'm a walking disaster.

hi, christmas is in 21 days. I want to be gingrbread man and if my life was like one, i would gobble it straight away. I have dental later, and I haven't decide my colour maybe purple and yellow. I love to mix and match wild colours.

I'm at work, nothing much to do after cutting and pasting. Fun, i know. (: I'll prolly be going swimming later @ polo club, hoping it won't rain. I don't know, i'm day dreaming in the air now, it's either i made the wrong company of friends or i been a fool all this while.

I became a retard ytd, i wrote a "somewhat long" email to beu. I don't know, somehow or somewhat I felt that i been a fool towards this one sided friendship. Well, I mean i was the one that started the whole trouble, after beu said it was a silent escape.

Honestly, if I could tell beu that what SHE said to me before the "silent escape", it could srsly ruined their friendship. And now, i'm wondering. Why the hell did I helped her, she gets her things/way by crying through them.

K, i helped a friend that isn't worth my trust. And considering the fact, i'm stupid to listen to her. I lost a close brother. No matter how much I detest her or ignore her, people just seem to trust her only, and never console me. They just live by the fact, she's the angel, while I'm THE FREAKING DEVIL.

And now, i realised my blog isn't much about my life just ranting and sad things. OMG, joan said my blog is like a crying tv show. Well, i think i've done my part and even I haven't yet, just tell me, i'll do it right.

I just want everything to be back as normal. Find me a time machine, i'll give you my bank account. I JUST WANT TO TURN BACK TIME, the way you and me used to like it.

2nd day.

Edited at 12:24 AM
I changed my braces and colours dedicated to valencia. ahaha. (:

i went for a swim for valencia. it was fun and she came over my house to watch the 9PM show. she went home. Next, packed the whole room with sissy. but the lizard came in, we spent like 1/2 hour playing hide and seek with the lizard.