I went for the bbq ytd, cool. photos will be uploaded once jolene uploads it. :) Some unhapiness along the way. but after all yea, don't wanna think about it. Damn pissed-wth-crapped-ass. Reached home, still hungry so I went to ate noodles, nice nice yum yum! :) watched my show and mom came down and off the teevee. to order me to go and bathe. WTF. I wanna bathe after my show like, 5-10 minutes only. Also cannot. Stupid. Spoilt the whole day. (actually, it was already past 12 midnight.)
Went up, and bathed. Somehow, I saw E's letter and the the pictures i took with the guys. And my mood became really really low, in additional of what my mom had done. ): To the shower, I turned on and started sitting on the floor crying. I really wonder and asked God what have I done to deserve all these? Why must they do these, and give me such a Xmas present. ):
Firstly, they had to put up with me when they couldn't stand me. And only said all these things now- Xmas period. ): And the friends outside of school, i thought i could have trusted that slowly became my listening ear and shoping partner. turned out to be a hypocrite and backstabber. All the time, she couldnt stand me either. What have I done. I feel i'm suffering from some emotional breakdown now.
srsly, i really don't know anything. what can I do, xmas was once suppose to be love for me after that very awesome xmas service. but now, it's gone. I no longer felt the xmas spirit in me already, furthermore, I feel i just lost myself. I am no longer the sarahtanweiqi I had when I was during primary school and sec 1. Urghs, i really hate it! Bleah.I'm having swollen eyes now after crying about 1 hour in the shower. ):
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