the last kiss

I decided to make a photobook for Joy. Everyday, I will take pictures with him. it's the only last chance I could... Remembering the times whenever I'm sad, he would come and lick me. :) Remembering the times, when he loves to stand in the un for sun tanning. :) Remembering the days, when I threw the ball and he ran and take it. :) Remembering the days he would stand on his 2 paws. :)

Morning, I woke up quite early with the alarm clock playing some korean song. I couldn't pull myself up, so woke up rather late. Breakfast and then grandma's house. Boring there, wasted my 1.5 hours? Adults can open anything up just for a talk, for example braces. Then started discussing, about which teeth extracted, retainers wear until for life, blahblahblah.

Skip skip skip. Reached home, played with Joy and gave him ice cream. :D Let him live the happiest days of his life. But I believe there's miracle, I want joy to liveeeeeeee! :) I really don't want to leave his side, cause I'm scared if I do so, he might collapse and i won't be able to see him again ): And I never seen him so skinny and painful in his life before. ):

Papers start on wednesday and I hope nothing can affect me through the Eoy. I don't want to drop to NA, and I want my fav subjects and jc/poly of my choice. After talking with shermin over his kfc/maggie dinner on friday, I thought about it throughout. I guess maybe, I'm not the right person to befriend with. I'm sensitive enough, i'm very emotional, i have super loud voice, and an attitude person may think it's acting cute.

Sanyi is coming over to extract joy's fluid. Then i'm off to church. :) I pray that God will help me decide. But at the same time, maybe things could be settle after Eoy. Cause, reading my blog/knowing me in my everyday's life doesn't help at all. it's just something called "meant to be".

I know it will come one day, but I hate it...